Each and every situation I imagine in his context. When I see beautiful sunset I’d like to see it with him. When I look sexy I think he might like it, I’d like him to see me like that. When I dance and there is nobody around I close my eyes and imagine my hands are his. Each and every morning when I wake up the first though is that I’d love to feel his presence next to me. When I watch movie I like, I want to do it again with him. When I cook I wonder if that dish might tastes good to him, I remember he likes spicy food. When I fix my bike I think, fine, when we can meet again I will have an efficient vehicle to go to him.
Even I coloured my hair little red few weeks ago. Why? Of course, because he mentioned once I could look nice in red. But for what purpose? I do not really know… He will never see it, won’t he?